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	My Blog dun dirty it	profile I am Helmy. mostly ppl call me Emy will celebrate my bday every 17 november im still schooling arnd east side Im werking at PH i have a lots of girlfriends tehee! and i hv my dudes arnd me.. wats more ehk? i love to slacking and smoking wanna noe more bout me just read my post ehk. forgot to tell ya, im crazy freak too! wishlist ■ I wish someone to love me! ■ wish i can change my attutide towords my family. ■ ~~i wish my family can give my more love!~~ ■ i wish that 1 day my family n i leave happily. without all the fights! ■ ~~i wish not to mix ard wif the bad company!~~ ■ ~~i wish to find a good job in the future!!!~~ ■i wish to have a body like zac efron. ■ ~~i wish that i can have a good wife.~~	WHY! 3010456523647024522 date: Tuesday, April 28, 2009 time: 2:23 AM comments: 0 WHY? Tell me y? ade kah aku yg salah kerana tk luar kan ati ku pade die? adekah aku ini bodo. hmm. yg aku tahu aku da luar kan pade die, tapi die aje yg tidak tahu. apekah care aku luar kan kat die salah? salame ini, aku cume tulis dlm blog, tapi kini die da tahu semue nye. bile aku bace blog die tadi aku yg nangis. aku tk tahu asl air mate jatuh. aku tgk dlm diri aku ini skg mcm kosong. ape lagi yg aku ade? aku telah ilang org yg paling aku sayang. selelah beberape bulan pun aku masi berpikir pasal diri die. aku cube nak lupekan die tapi aku gagal. entah kenapa aku rase kosong tanpa die. kenape aku lukai hati die? aku luke kan hati die tanpa aku sedari. aku buat bende yg die tk suke. tapi pade aku, aku tahu aku tk salah. die buat dende yg aku tk suke tapi pade diri die, die tahu die betul. setiap malam aku terpikir sal die. aku ingin tahu semue tentang diri die tapi asl bile aku da tahu aku yang sakit hati. kalo la malam itu aku tidak lang die yg org luar itu aku, kan senang. jadi aku tk ya case mcm ini. aku betulbetul tk tahu asl aku masi ade hati kat die. walaupun die sudah ade org lain. itu yg membuat aku tertanyatanya. dan bile aku tahu diriku masi sayang kan die, aku berkate aku akan tunggu kan die walaupun berape lame pun aku tk kesah. hidupku tanpa die beberapa bulan yang lepas cukup merana bagiku. aku buntu, ilang akal tanpa die. to the person i refer to, tetapa lame pun i akan sangup tunggu u. org kate i gilur tepok sebelah tanggan. tapi ape nak uat. i betul2 da tk leh lupe kan u. kalo lupe pun, sekejap je. lps tu timbul pulak perasan itu lagi. kali ini perasan itu semakin kuat. aku bingung, buntu mcm2 agi aku rase. cume u aje yg tak tahu. dugaan ini cukup berat bagi ku. kenape aku yg terime semue ini. ~EmY~ comment? 26169159067742491 date: Friday, April 24, 2009 time: 3:55 AM comments: 0 salams, Org Luar AKA EmY READERS, GUESS WAT? tadi aku kol die, hehe. i told her everytin. abt the blog i noe everytin after we breakup. abt kimmy her mum n her sickness. thats y i call her. aku tahu die benci kat aku. tapi aku berni kan diri dan kol die. aleh2 die bebual ngan aku bergitu baik sekali. pertama sekali aku tanya kaber die. die kate die ok. da baik. hmm. tapi aku suruh die rehat. lepas aku tanya kabar aku mintak maaf kat die sal masa lalu kte. die ckp 'its a past. n i da lupe kan pun.' than baru la aku tanya die sal kimmy, mama die. die speechless. die asik tny aku mcm ane aku tahu. aku lang die ape die nk kesah, perna die amek kesah sal aku selepas kte break up. that time aku tgh otw alik dari tampines. lepak ngan LBs. yg trn tadi boden mcm biase jugak, zepa, wan belo, shakirin aka baby, elly, reiko. most of the time aku pk sal fina. itulah yang gerak kan hati aku untuk kol die. wats the harm? limited2 die pekek kat aku. tapi lepas aku kol die, sebalik pulak jadi nye. die baik, da mcm matair sheyy kite. alah ape salah nye kan. siape yg nk kasi. lame jugak kte bbl. dlm 3 jam. heheheh. lame eh. die asik tny2 aku mcm ane aku tahu. aku ckp aku 'OL' ( orang luar). name itu lah yang aku pakai untuk tag blog die. at first, die tk tahu ape 2 OL. after some time aku lang die yg OL yg kat blog die. die btl2 nye speechless. boleh nampak. hehehe. ~Emy~ comment? 1276316714927042053 date: Tuesday, April 21, 2009 time: 1:56 AM comments: 0 salams 2 all. kini aku tgh chat ngan dear n sweetheart aku. hehehe. which is hani n ain. best jugak chat ngan drg! hehe. tag drg da la kene kacau dari aku. hehehe. sweetheart sori if i wrote in malay n u don understand, but i love to write in malay. i try to write in eng k once in a while. tadi aku angun siang pukul tujuh suku aku dah bangun. selepas mandi semue aku pun telefon danial. ternyate class bermule pada pukul 10 pagi. hehe. ketawe sorang aku di rumah. aku pun telefon zepa, tapi die start class die pulul 8. ape nak buat kan. lepas sekola, aku pergi ke rumah boden. kite rancang nak menonton movie, tapi yang tengok aku sorang. boden da tdo dulu. kini aku da alik. n masi tgh chat ngan sweetheart n dear aku. hmm. darling aku bile nk on9 pun tk tahu. maklom la da start sch. mesti bz cari hot dudes. rite darling. hehhehe. c u guys ard. miss u all. dear, sweetheart n lastly darling! ~EmYsLaCkEr~ comment? 9179482149774415295 date: Sunday, April 19, 2009 time: 4:20 AM comments: 0 salams to all. nari aku keje. n guess wat aku rindu semue bdk2 ph. da lame aku tk jumpe drg. tadi dtg je 1st person aku nampak is darling. hehehehehe. rianahdarling, hehe die trs gi belakang n aku hug die. than aku nampak riki n the rest. hmm. mcm biase tadi aku gi blog die. this time die update byk puisi2 die. da lame aku tk bace puisi2 die. bile bace rase rindu. tapi wat to do. aku happie 4 her as long as die happie. LBs selalu tny asl ko pkpk sal die where die tk tahu pun ko pk sal die? the ans is aku masi lom leh agi get over her. kenangan lame masi terigt lagi di minda. aku doa2 harap 1 ari aku dpt lupe kan die. pasal Ms. I lak, tadi die kol aku. hmm. aku rindu die gilur babs. nanti bile jumpe mcm nk hug je die. tapi tgk la kn. sal skg ni aku hanye tepok sebelah tangan je. sakit ati jugak bile aku dpt tahu die kuar ngan org lain. aku kadang2 terpk ada kah aku ni reboun semata mata. walau ape pun aku tetap akan tgu kan dia sampai aku temu org yg ingin bersame ku untuk selame lamenye. kla aku nk tgk naruto. hehe. p.s hani sori tk reply msg lom topup pp8. hehe. zima all the best nanti keje. ain jgn lupe nk update blog kalo tk tgk la tagboard ko ape aku n zima uat. hahahahaha kla. morning 2 every1. ~EmYsLaCkEr~ comment? 1501789971224430917 date: Wednesday, April 15, 2009 time: 2:55 AM comments: 0 salams to all, nari aku nye second day of sch n aku tk gi. hehehe. tk leh angun ar beb, sal smlm nye aku ton ngan reiko. da tk de bende nk uat. LB's bsk ade yg sch, ade yg sakit (aban get well soon), n uan salim tk leh kuar mlm. last choice reiko. sal smlm aku mendak gilur. tk tahu ape nk uat. so kuar. kuar ngan reiko pun in the end, die yg tdo. hahaha. n aku ade snap some shoots of die tdo. nanti aku ltk k. (Reiko, theres a present 4 u). oh yar aku pun ade gambar boden tdo. time LBs semue ton umah boden. than die tdo n kte amek gambar. nanti aku pun ltk k. tadi aku bace blog die, ternyate die btl2 binci aku. die kate aku 4 letter word, n ape word pun aku tk tahu. yg aku tahu die da baik balik ngan kimmy. aku bace blog die recently die kate kalo kimmy tgl kan die, die akan jadi bad gal, aku tk nk die jadi mcm 2. even tho die da terlepas pade org lain tetap aku masi cyg die. aku nk try lupe kan die tapi tk leh. aku tag kt blog die, aku tahu die tk tahu yg aku bace blog die, jadi aku pakai name org jauh. aku tny die ape motive die nk uat mcm 2. die kate ape yg diluar kan ade reason die. aku tahu yg aku tk de hak atas die. tapi kimmy, aku harap ko blt2 jage die baik2. aku tk nk die jadi jahat. aku tahu die seorg insan yg baik, bkn mcm aku. kla aku nk tgk movie ni. bye. ~EmYsLaCkEr~ Boden bibir relax k. Reiko best tdo? P.S. As promise i give u the sleepin king n queen. comment? 1328515409565396618 date: Saturday, April 11, 2009 time: 9:11 AM comments: 0 salams, yesterday, sakura was fun. heheheh.we all ate alot. Lepak Boyz(LB's) was in full attendence. hehehe. punye la fun. tapi sad nye fandi kene jalan siang. die nak kene msk camp alik. but we still continue our day. ltr i update the pics k. ade byk tapi tk de time je nak ltk. after that kte semue gi shesha. it was fun tapi aku gado ngan wan belo. die mcm sial. aku da la tk de mood, tapi aku terpakse. sal aku nak ilang kan probs aku. aku kuar ngan drg n byk ton coz of that. probs mcm sial. tambar die lak. apeda. tapi aku tk de niat nk gado ngan die. aku cume btl2 stress that time. ini semue sal u noe who....WTF! Y LIFE IS SO UNFAIR. WAT HAVE I DONE TO GET THIS? EmY comment? 8599938115257774748 date: time: 8:52 AM comments: 0 salams, adekah aku semakin hanyut? kenape die ckp mcm 2? ape aku uat? ape salah aku? ape aku uat sampai die kate aku makin hanyut? WTF! WAITWAIT!!!!!......WHO THE FUCK IS SHE? WHO SHE THINK SHE IS! SHE IS JUST SOME STUPID GAL WHO DUMP ME! SO Y DO SHE SAY ALL THE THINGS ABT ME? FUCK HER!!!!! Y DID SHE COME BACK 2 MY LIFE WHEN I TRY 2 4GET HER!!!! WATS WITH GALS ANIWAY? Y DO THEY COME N GO AS THEY PLZ. WHO THEY THINK THEY ARE? SOME MOTHER FUCKER HOT SHOT!!! FUCK THEM LA. ALL THEY DO IS MESSING WITH GUYS. Y CAN'T THEY BE LOYAL. COZ THEY R TOO FUCKIN EYE CANDY. TK LEH NAMPAK LAKI AGI HANDSOME! KALO LEH SEMUE JANTAN DLM DUNIA INI DRG NAK!!! WTF SIA!!!! EmY comment? 3261183613019640397 date: Thursday, April 9, 2009 time: 8:09 AM comments: 0 salams to all, pass few days i have been sick. i think coz of lack of sleep n too much smokin. hehehe. but i do have fun too. i ton a lots n came to work face stoney2 n start to kacau people. hehehe. sori guys. yg paling best on the 8th. kte time break gi mkn kat sakura. aku rara, daling n sherin. best makan kat sane. haha! than mlm itu aku lpk ngan LB's. hehehe. best sak. heheheh. lpk entah kt ane da lupe ar. hehehe. gtg bye! comment? 1598863285345650323 date: Sunday, April 5, 2009 time: 9:56 AM comments: 0 salams, well i'm home. at last. penat tauk. hahaha. smlm keje leh mati tauk. foh staff setakat ade bape org je. nana wan riki rara n me. tapi its kinnda fun. we have lots of laughter. hehehe. after work we all lpk at cp. hahaha. than ain lps keje trn. sebok je. da la keje kt sake sushi. we lpk till 115. hahaha! lame jugak kn. hehehehe. than guess wat aku lpk agi, kat umah boden. aku da lpk 4 3 hari berturut2. hehehe. abe nari tgh la kalo nk lpk agi. mati sheyy mcm ni. aaaaaaRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. this good friday, kene gi jumpe tis bloody ustart. for some stupid counsiling. wth. counsil abt i donno wat shit that idot going to say. come on la i got other plans on that day. ini mesti keje ini ibu tauk. going 4 family counsiling. WTF. I M 20 THIS YR DON TREAT ME LIKE A SMALL KID. I HAVE BRAINS U NOE. mcm ane org tk ton semue. akik je kene nag, nag, nag. ITU AJE KEJE IBU. TK DE KEJE LAIN. KALO TK TGK TV CITE CINE. SEKAKI NGAN ADIK AKU. HAIZZZZ..... this is 4 u, Ms. ******, kamu lihat di langit? ape yg kamu lihat? awan, bintang, bulan. sungguh indah sekali, bergitu indah cinta ku padamu. hmm, imysm. masib baik i li kan u pooh bear that time u sakit. i igt u da lupe kan i. i hope we will keep our hubungan kekal. eventho as friends. i admit i love u lots. but its still too early. wateva it is i will be watin 4 u. till when i oso don noe. kla aku gtg nak siap2 nk gi keje. hehehe. btw aku lupe HAPPIE BDAE TOO IRAH. MAY UR WISHES COME TRUE. SEMOGA TUHAN PANGANG KAN UMUR U.......................and to nana, relax k gal. tk mo stress nanti cpt tua. ur best friend da jumpe ex die, da hug n kiss. just let it be. let a past be a past. look forward to the future. MOVE ON. ITS JUST A CHAPTER IN THE PAST BUT DON CLOSE THE BOOK,JUST TURN THE PAGE. harap nana phm! ~aDdIoUs~ ~EmYsLaCkEr~ comment? 1040549866442087167 date: Friday, April 3, 2009 time: 7:18 AM comments: 0 salams, i haven been slpin 4 2 whole days oready. wth, mate nw stoney2. n jap agi gi keje agi. tapi tk pe. my hours explode. hehe. on the 10 of apr, all lepak boyz members going out. hahaha. 2 where? sakura. yahoo. da lame tk kuar same2, full squad. we will drivin down to clementi outlet. hehehe. plz guyz tk mo uat plan cockup ar. i m lookin 4ward till this day. kla. gtg nk siap 4 work. nanti lambat lak. ~EmY~ comment? 4552519179785890012 date: Wednesday, April 1, 2009 time: 2:30 AM comments:** 0 salams. nari aku jumpe boden. da lame tk jumpe siot. asik keje je. hahaha. n guess wat gaji je kte gi makan kat sakura. ramai2 all the lepak boyz. hahaha. kla gtg update agi soon bye. ~EmYsLaCkEr~ comment?	archives February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 October 2009 January 2010 February 2010 recently Kutahu, kau selingkuhkau duakan cintaku yang tulus... hie. iths the wrong time! 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With that said, you may commence with your ~~nagging~~ tagging. talkbox My heart got to say this.. to all my friends who are single, love is like a butterfly. the more you chase it, the more it eludes you. but if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love is only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. so take your time and choose the best. to all my friends who are attached, love isn’t about becoming somebody else’s perfect person. its about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be. to all my friends who are just taking others for a ride, never say "I love you" if you don’t care. never talk about feelings if they aren’t there. never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. never look in the eye when all you do is lie. the cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl: is to let her fall in love; when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways. to all my friends who are engaged, the true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together; but how good you are for each other. to all my friends who are married, love is not about "its your fault", but "I'm sorry" not "where are you", but "I’m right here" not "how could you", but "I understand" not "I wish you were", but "im thankful you are" to all my friends who are heartbroken, heartbreaks last as long as you want; and cut as deep as you allow them to go. the challenge is not how to survive a heartbreaks, but to learn from them. to all my friends who are naïve, how to be in love: be consistent but not too persistent. share and never be unfair. understand and try not to demand. and get hurt but never keep the pain. to all my friends who are possessive, it breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else. but its more painful to know that the one you love; is unhappy with you. to all my friends who are afraid to confess, love hurts when you break up with someone. it hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. but love hurts the most: when the person you love has no idea about how you feel about him/her. to all my friends who are still holding on, a sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end it was never meant to be; and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn’t worth it. if that person doesn’t worth it now, its not going to be worth it in a year or 10 years from now. to all my friends who are who you are, this post is not meant to offend anybody. im sorry if its hurt you in any way, its just a post for all to share.